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So Monday the 28th was a day so full that I didn't get things written down, but I got a great many things done. All the outgoing items were packed and their labels run. Various tasks were completed. Biggest of all, though, was talking with an advisor.
Any kind of advisor is a big deal to me, for all sorts of reasons, some good, some painful. I'll leave out all the personal history and what it's like approaching the hectic bureaucracy of this capitalist hellscape from the starting point of being a third generation factory worker who navigates the world with numerous disabilities and chronic illnesses, who came from a little farm town and often feels overwhelmed with all that needs doing.
But Monday I talked with a financial advisor, and it was good. Tuesday, I talked in more depth with the financial advisor who is probably going to be my particular financial advisor. (I practiced up for this by getting some constructive related experience by talking with a Lutheran Social Services financial person-who-makes-sense-of-what-you're-in'the-midst-of about a year back, and they were tremendously informative even though I was terrified. I highly recommend them.)
It might not seem that big to anybody else, but it was huge for me, and I am now feeling a combination of victorious, stunned, and tentatively optimistic about the future. And I'm flat out exhausted. But smiling.
Perfume of the day on Monday was Nocturne Alchemy's Amber Sun (both kinds, the blue label and the red label), which don't actually work for me, so I shall let them go. Perfume of the day on Tuesday (I won't say "today" because we've slipped into Wednesday) was BPAL's Stimulating Sassafrass Strengthener, which is actually weirdly good on me.
I wish you so much good fortune in any of your askings-for-help and finding-advisors endeavours. How's that been going? Do you, like me, sometimes feel like you're such a tangle-maker that even the helpers wouldn't want to deal with you because you have undoubtedly Bollixed Things All Up in ways that Surpass Imagination? (Boy howdy, do I ever feel like that. So much, I feel like that, and so often. But not right now! Right now, I actually feel tentatively optimistic, and also kind of exhaustedly giddy.)
Any kind of advisor is a big deal to me, for all sorts of reasons, some good, some painful. I'll leave out all the personal history and what it's like approaching the hectic bureaucracy of this capitalist hellscape from the starting point of being a third generation factory worker who navigates the world with numerous disabilities and chronic illnesses, who came from a little farm town and often feels overwhelmed with all that needs doing.
But Monday I talked with a financial advisor, and it was good. Tuesday, I talked in more depth with the financial advisor who is probably going to be my particular financial advisor. (I practiced up for this by getting some constructive related experience by talking with a Lutheran Social Services financial person-who-makes-sense-of-what-you're-in'the-midst-of about a year back, and they were tremendously informative even though I was terrified. I highly recommend them.)
It might not seem that big to anybody else, but it was huge for me, and I am now feeling a combination of victorious, stunned, and tentatively optimistic about the future. And I'm flat out exhausted. But smiling.
Perfume of the day on Monday was Nocturne Alchemy's Amber Sun (both kinds, the blue label and the red label), which don't actually work for me, so I shall let them go. Perfume of the day on Tuesday (I won't say "today" because we've slipped into Wednesday) was BPAL's Stimulating Sassafrass Strengthener, which is actually weirdly good on me.
I wish you so much good fortune in any of your askings-for-help and finding-advisors endeavours. How's that been going? Do you, like me, sometimes feel like you're such a tangle-maker that even the helpers wouldn't want to deal with you because you have undoubtedly Bollixed Things All Up in ways that Surpass Imagination? (Boy howdy, do I ever feel like that. So much, I feel like that, and so often. But not right now! Right now, I actually feel tentatively optimistic, and also kind of exhaustedly giddy.)
